Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold

So i went home after my classes and the internet died very quickly. This left me surfing the net on my iphone which is not so much fun. It left me cut off from the world and very uncomfortable. Mind you it was my fault, i refused to fix it but that is my own problem what is important is now that i have it back it feels almost opposite and i feel like i am wasting my time on the internet. Am i learning anything? Really doing anything interesting or productive? Maybe it's just growing up but i think i am getting bored of the internet and am looking for something more.

I have been trying to get back into gaming but the older i get the more picky i get with games. I enjoyed Gears of War 2 but i am not done with it yet, about 60% done i would say. Its the older games that i have bought and am trying to enjoy that i just have not been able to. I tried to enjoy Metal Gear Solid 4 and i am just not getting into it. It got nearly perfect scores and i just seem to get through the Second Act which is just surprising. I have been playing a bit of Little Big Planet and it really is fun but it could be better honestly. I don't know, platformers are not my type of game but this appeals me on a certain level and overly frustrates me on another. The business idea is an interesting one for LBP though, a difficult non childrens game is held to a higher standard for cleanliness and avoidance of anything that might offend anyone. I will go back to my room and play Fallout 3 and Fable 2 because i need something that will capture my attention, most of the games i have tried have been passing distractions at best.

Anyways what i am saying is that i seem to be getting bored of everything, i am not enjoying my old pastimes. Before i would spend ours playing video games and now most of the things i am playing just are not fun. The internet is not holding my attention and i don't know. Maybe it's just where i am in life with everything. My life is seriously insane at the moment. I have no idea how to handle the women in my life and love life (or the lack of it?) I feel like nothing i do has any real affect on anything that happens, i am just watching horrible events transpire in front of me and people keep on hurting me. Yes i know i'm not some innocent joe but i do the best the can and put my best foot forward. I watch these girls do what they want for their own reasons while i sit here and suffer and i guess it is a big thing that people want to remain in control of their lives but i just want to feel like i am having an effect for the positive opposed to just watching everything collapse around me.

December 08 is an impressive and confusing one for me. With fallout from girls, then finals which absolutely destroyed me and then dealing with girls again. And again. And AGAIN. This month just wont stop messing with my head and someone or something is just having fun with me and my suffering. I have no idea what to do at this point and nothing is giving me pleasure, not my normal pastimes and loneliness is an easy emotion to feel when someone really is alone. It is easy for me to feel hurt but that gets me nowhere. I keep on looking for things to distract me but nothing seems to be working. I am going on vacation will be somewhat cathartic because i'll be getting away from everyone and everything but that does not mean that i will be getting away from my mind. The month has less then 30 hours on it and i can only hope things stabilize next year. I have no idea if they will be i am living on a prayer here, if things do not get more normal i don't know how much longer i can take this stuff. It is ironic that most of my life i would have killed for the attention of one girl and now it is clear that the world is having a great laugh at my expense. Attention is not my problem but possibilities are lacking and the fact that the female gender is crazy does not help me at all. I have the sinking feeling that everything will calm down soon enough and i will be left alone and lonely again soon enough. Otherwise i will learn my stretching point soon enough.

With this internet lacking time in my life i have been listening to a ton of music and just enjoying it all. Listening to old things like my favorite old Fall Out Boy CDs or the new Kanye West '808 and Heartbreak' i have just been enjoying it all. I did some cooking and made a rather good vegetable sauce which is not only heavy but is rather healthy. Other then that i have been suffering in my own little mind. I guess i should write more, if anything else it is a healthy habit. I will be going back to World of Warcraft and see if i can get some enjoyment from that along with playing some other games.

My new years resolutions will be just to read and learn about psychology through wikipedia because if i will be successful i need to actually try with this major. I will read my textbook and learn about what i mean taught. I will write about people i see around me, i will write about the subject and i will become good at it. I have also resolved to gain some muscle weight. Even though i think i look ok i can always do better, i don't want to sit here and just be ok with my life when things can be made better.

It is funny because looking around my life is supposed to be easy but it never is.It feels like i drive myself crazy doing nothing at all, just worrying about the world. Guess that just makes me crazy but hopefully i can make something good out of my crazy.

Longer days and longer nights

I am not getting enough sleep nowadays so i wont make this a long one but here is a nice quote i found a few days ago that i fear i will lose.

“For all sad words of tongue or pen, The saddest are these: ‘It might have been’.”
–John Greenleaf Whittier

Better as a memory

Smile like you mean it

"Boy, one day you'll be a man. Oh girl, he'll help you understand. Smile like you mean it."

I love this song and the whole CD, it is something that i wish i gave a chance years ago. It's the evolution of modern rock picking it up from the 'U2'ultion. I got the pirated new FOB cd which is great. Other then that i have been happier. Things are no less peaceful but i'm progressing in the right direction no matter what happens. Oh my sleep cycle is so fucked. At least i don't have class today but i want to get out to the commons during the rush. Oh well, i'll try my best. I gotta clean my room up too. *sigh* Off to bed i go.

A Long December

Love Story

Sleepless in Youtube

Gotta love amazon, all those DVDs i ordered already shipped and should be at my home soon, all with free shipping. Yeah turns out i am having trouble sleeping which is always fun. My dreams haven't been helping also, they just haven't been friendly. I bought a new iphone app for a $1 which is supposed to make taking night pictures better and i don't particularly know if it works but i was playing with it. I got this snazzy picture, i really like it. Other then that i have been surfing youtube and i found Tayor Swift and i actually like her music... sort of. It's an interesting blend of pop-rock/country and i do enjoy some of her songs but many of them are too "boy sweeps girl off her feet" for me to relate. Amazon seems to be having their "Cyber Monday" sale starting now and i just picked up Little Big Planet for $40. Ugh my mother wont be happy but when is she ever. I wonder if i should shave tomorrow, i really don't feel like it but i should try and start cleaning up. I don't want to give an aura of being a bum and that i am so broken up still. I will go to the clump for an hour tomorrow if i am up to it. I really don't want to have to talk to people but i doubt it is going to half as bad as i expect. On the other hand people like talking to me. This is just tiring, I am going to try and sleep again.

This could be a problem...

Guh this is going to be a mistake. I mean look at it. It's so much pizza. I have to order this sometime this week but i can't see it ending well. It looks amazing and disgusting at the same time.

'I look just like Buddy Holly'

I am going through and recollecting all my lost music from earlier this year and it is an interesting trip. I forgot how much i loved From Under the Cork and How to Save a Life. I also went back and found one of my favorite CD's, Astro Lounge from Smash Mouth. This throw away band really did release a CD 10 years a head of it's time with easy listening music that mixes at least a dozen styles of music. It really is a trip to listen to. I haven't been sleeping well so it's time i get to bed and prentend to try and sleep for a few hours while listening to music.

I'm losing touch

"Console me in my darkest hour
Convince me that the truth is always grey
Caress me in your velvet chair
Conceal me from the ghost you cast away

I'm in no hurry,
You go run And tell your friends I'm losing touch
Fill their heads with rumours of impending doom
It must be true"

Street Lights

"let me know, do i still got time to grow
things aint always set in stone
with that being, let me know
let me

seems like streetlights glowing
happened to be just like moments
passing, in front of me so
i hopped in, the cab and
i paid my fair, see
i know my, destination
but im just not there"

'I know my destination but i'm just not there'

Kanye West's new CD '808 and Heartbreak' is simply fantastic. A heartfelt CD about break ups and heartache has really hit a tone with me at this point in my life. The song 'Street Lights' is just amazing. It's an angry CD but it has really made me feel better. The Killers have also come out with a great new CD which i picked up for $4 in an Amazon mp3 sale. The song 'Spaceman' has something about it that has hooked me. While both CDs have fantastic lyrics the '808 and Heartbreak' touches something deeper beyond simple pop or rap.

I went home for thanksgiving and it's black friday. I used to love Black Friday. The crowds, the people, the deals, the new DVDs i would buy and then enjoy for the next year. Guess i'm not in the mood for it this year, i ordered whatever deals i could find on Amazon and pretty much gave up on the rest. I ordered Supernatural season 2+3, Venture Bros Season 1+2 (this is something that not enough people at the clump have watched) and the T.I. Paper Trail CD. I had a huge list of things and maybe i'll head out and pick up some more DVDs tomorrow but odds are everything will be gone. I realized i wouldn't be happy about the break up but i am not liking how my mood is sitting at a depressed-bitterness. I canceled the Rock Band endless setlist thing because i was not in the mood for it and now me not doing Black Friday is just not normal for me. Seems that i don't take being broken up with that well. I have been avoiding Facebook, AIM, and the clump mostly because i am just tired. I don't want to deal with people, i don't want to deal with questions and i don't want to deal with the looks. I feel like an idiot already but i guess thats not going to change any time soon. I am just very tired and it's one of those things that does not get better with more sleep. Maybe i can pretend it's just my sleep cycle.

Now that i'm home i have found out i don't have anything to eat up my time. I don't feel like spending the break studying and my PS3 and 360 are at school. I have books but reading just hasn't been able to keep my attention recently. I have my Wii so thats something but i am not a particular fan of Wii games. I really just need to get out of my own head, i am just driving myself crazy. I think i need to make a better pick in women and relationships because i can't keep doing this to myself. It is a rattling feeling to think that something as basic as attraction could be flawed in a person but i prove the worst of people. I'm not talking about the generic, 'oh i guess she is hot.' but the people i actually care about. I always assumed that the people i was interested in were good people but they never end up being good for me. If i can't trust that the people i care about are right then what the hell am i supposed to believe? I am making mistakes that are just causing me pain and i ether just need to give up or find some way to fix it. And while i would love to think i made these choices because i lost my weight but i know if i had the confidence earlier i would haven't have changed anything. I am done trying to do the right thing constantly, i am burned out and i give up. Relationships just don't work for me and i never end up doing well. I am terrible at this moving on thing and i need to be far more careful. After 3 years i am worn down. Having no prospects for the future is also rather depressing. Being in a time of transition has left me adrift. I have to refocus this energy into something productive like the gym. I should start lifting but i have no idea if i have lost enough weight to affect how my body looks. If i have to lose 10 more pound i doubt i can handle it. I just don't know what to do at this point. I have changed my major and even told my parents and i should be happy but alas i am not. I know i should go try and hang out with people but i just don't want to. I know i should start going to the weight room but i just don't want to. I am trapped in my head, in my memories and it is the worst place for me to be. I know my destination but i'm just not there.

I still haven't figured out if writing makes me feel better or putting things like this just overwhelms me. Plus i always think i am going to proof read and i never do and i feel bad about it. Bah, at least i watched a lot of Football today.

Truth be told...

"Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell"

Heartless

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 2]
How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

A New Planet in My Solar System

Well it's the blog i like to pretend i don't have but acts as a fantastic journal when i want to rant about something and only have myself read it in 3 months. Anyways life has moved on for me. My weight loss is staying at 175... or around that. It seems to be always above that but I'll worry about that later. I am trying to build muscle weight from here on out but i don't know how that will work out at this point. Turns out i will be going to the Jacks Mannequin concert later today which will be fun. It is on their 'The Glass Passenger' CD which was not as good as their first because it just wasn't filled with as many hooks but musically is still a good CD. I am going out with Carrie now which is something interesting to say the least. WoW isn't going well with my horrible failure at time management. Wrath of the Lich King came out last week and things have not worked out in my favor at all because of my stupidity. I am pretending to do an essay right but instead writing here, maybe this will help get through my pretend writers block. In other music news, the new Fallout Boy CD will be released in little less then a month now and i can not wait. I think i can register for classes today actually, that will be interesting. I have unofficially changed my major to pysc and am considering a Bio Minor along with a poly sci degree but who knows. Epic failure on my part but i will have to move on. Other then me not playing WOTLK i have not been doing anything different on the video game front. I have missed out on most major game releases at the moment. I have a borrowed copy of Fable 2 but i am nowhere in it, haven't played Gears of War 2, Resistance 2, Little Big Planet or any other of the million big games released this holiday season. At least it feels that i am spending less money now. Doing things with friends costs money but it is a lot less then buying $60 games at least once a month. My goal on becoming less materialistic is becoming a bit better i would say. While i am not there yet i can control the little kid inside of me and wait for things now. Well most things i guess, i still got Wrath of the Lich King at midnight but i doubt i will ever go and buy a video game system at launch for full price. This growing up thing is terrible, i knew i hated it for some reason. At least the people you hang out with when your older is far better then high school. I have been spending time with real life friends this year and it seems that all of us have less time to spend. Chris has Krys, Tim has Amy, and now i am spending time with Carrie. Other then that i have been hanging out with Dan which is always good times.

I guess i should put my idea of relationships down in words but i don't have much to say. All this is new to me and my personality of worrying just seems to take over sometimes. I guess the faults of my father will haunt me for the rest of my life but that's how it works out when your just not as smart as your parents. I really don't know how any of this stuff works and many of my examples are just fake or tainted anyways so i am just letting things happen and expecting nothing. Putting this down on paper where anyone can read it is killing me but it is something i should do none the less. It is an interesting time in my life none the less, learning a lot about people and not just in this relationship case. Very different to say the least, I don't know what else to say. Family is an interesting idea to me, i do believe we are built upon the legacy of our parents and it is one of those things that i believe i will never be able to match up to mine. Whats sad in my case is my parents have no faith that i can so they expect nothing even though they should. I actually have to deal with my parents and this relationship within the next month or so will be interesting but i am expecting nothing big. I don't know things will work out with anything but at least i have this written down for posterity. Who knows where or what i will be doing in one, two, five, ten years but i will have this down and i can come back to see. Guess that is the magic of a journal, you can see the evolution of a person as times go on. People never stop changing so i guess it's something beautiful. I really hope no one else is reading this, my rantings at now 3 AM make me sound crazy. But i do have a lot on my mind and every man needs his or her release. Many people find solace in others but i enjoy finding solace in myself, maybe due to lack of trust or an over active imagination but if you can't find happiness without anyones help you can't really find it at all. Of course this method leaves one kind of bitter so maybe it does not work so well. Maybe i'll find someone to talk to. I have not been as stressed this semester though. I dropped too many classes i guess and have been getting enough sleep. I feel healthier actually but i don't think i really am. I guess the stress from a social life eats away at you differently then stress from work. I don't know which one is worse but i will hate having to encounter both at the same time.But i think i might be complaining for the sake of complaining, things in my life are going far better then they should and knowing me i will screw something up majorly but at the moment life is going smooth as usual if not a lot more busy.

There is this horrible feeling that has been growing in my since i joined college that these late nights i spend working never seem to really leave me. They slowly but surely eat away at me and i am a little less then what i was before after it all. Sure i recover some but i am always a little more tired then before. A little slower. A little older but no wiser. It is almost haunting what our generation has become, an army of 3 AM workers that might burn out at the age of 55. We have elected the youngest president in united states history but we as the Emo/depressed/repressed generation wont be able to enjoy the joyful suffering of our labor. Is this how people start to burn out in college? I see people around me having this problem but is this really normal? Should we be like this? Maybe it is worse (well i can't say worse but different) for me because i have not found that one thing that i love doing. Dan loves Econ, Carrie loves compsci, Debbie loves English, Tim loves Chem. I love... slacking off? Maybe i suffer more because my labor is rewarded with more suffering. I am changing majors but i don't even know if i love psyc. And an actual personal life will probably eat away at a man. I have seen friends break due to this stuff. I mean break mentally. They don't recover from the stress and i don't want that happening to me. On the other hand i will not be a coward to future and progress but these are real things to think about. Maybe thats just how this country was built. The nation of the silent man who has a decent midlife crisis is because he never resolved issues at my age. The quest for inner peace is not a short term goal and is an always evolving one so maybe one day i can find peace not only in myself but the faith to find it in someone else as well. Feels like i repeat the same things over and over again but i might just be getting slightly closer this time. Last time i forced my self to work out something drastic i ended up losing my weight. I am at the point in my life where i can actually achieve some of my goals and turn some things around and become the person i want to be. I believe i will look back at my life and this will be the crucial point whether i made the right choices or not. For better or worse i feel the wind of change blowing and the only casualty is my youth.

An interesting time to be honest, it seems to be a transitional time for many people. Many people have changed and are actually growing up. No one is getting ready to have kids or anything but it is the little things that define a man and when they change it is always interesting. I can't look through the looking glass back at myself but i think i might be changing too but i can't really consider that really. It is interesting to see peoples response to things changing. Many people see things changing and do not like it but realize that they have no control on the world around them even though they thought they had more of an effect on it. When people change and move on without you even knowing it can be a shocking thing so people tend to latch on to whatever is left. I can't say i would enjoy seeing the status quo leaving me behind, it is a scary thing especially when you are being passed by your friends. I dunno maybe i am just crazy but some people are beginning to transition into the whole graduation period and others are not and many people are just not in that mode. Some people will never really change from what they are and will always be like this. Ok i have wasted enough time talking about what i shouldn't and thinking about things i don't need to.

Oh i have started cooking and i am going to start posting recipes here once they are mastered. Or i might start a new blog for that, don't want to mix business and pleasure (or i guess business and crazy.) I really hope no one reads, I really shouldn't post things at 2:30 AM.

I will be making my Sweet and Sour Chicken later today so i will see how that turns out. I have my Chicken Parm, my sauce, my grilled cheese and uh. I know i can make more things then that, i just have to think. Oh and my soup, yeah i love that soup. Hmmm i know i can make more things i just have to think. Oh well, they will come to me eventually. On to my Essay.

PS: TI paper trail is one interesting CD, some vulgar hip hop but it a well arranged CD that has some sick beats. I am hooked.





PSS: An apology to future me, i know i have horrible spelling errors in this blog but they will have to stay like that for a while. The flow will also be terrible due to me writing it in multiple attempts. I might go through it over the weekend and clean it up a bit but i have a feeling i will forget. Price you have to pay, the openness of 3 AM comes with horrible spelling and thought processes. At least i cleared my mind a bit...

Atleast i'm no longer 19...

So my birthday just ended and it was a tiring one. I don't really write on my blog but i felt like writing somewhere and here is as good as any. So i have been thinking of addiction recently and how companies get people addicted to things. Things like World of Warcraft are addictive of course because of high quality game play and accessibility but outside of playing the game how do people get addicted to things within the game? People will spend hours looking for new creatures to ride or new titles to add to their name in the game not thinking how trivial these things are. All the explanations i have heard is that people want to do have things the like when they are doing things for hours a day but seriously its just an excuse to get more addicted to something addictive. God these game developers are tricky. Ok nothing else important.

Jefferson Lives

So i am deep into the summer and my weight loss is going ok. Not too well but whatever, things happen and the rest. I will start going to the pool from tomorrow so that should be interesting. My new bike has been fantastic so far but the people who put it together seem to be idiots as many little things seem to be put together poorly. The new Iphone was revealed today, $300 for the 16gb with GPS and a 3g network. It looks fantastic and i hope to get it as soon as my current tmobile contract runs out. Other then that life has been the same. I watched season 2 of Dexter and i am moving on to the Sopranos season 6 and Rome Season 2. I have been playing more Mass Effect but i think i am going to go back to WoW for a while. I will do some PVP on my priest, get some badges on my Rogue and do whatever. I don't think i am going to be raiding at this point because of my class and gear but who knows what will happen in the future. My good CPU broke again as it wouldn't even turn on this time but hopefully everything comes back soon and in good condition. I sent it out friday and still no word from Alienware which is a bit concerning but it was the weekend. Metal Gear Solid 4 comes out in 2 days, i'll give that a shot and i hope i enjoy it. I have a stack of Wii games that need playing and GTA4 has not been touched enough. Well thats enough talking for now, i need to post more consistently so i can write a little bit better.

PS: Wowinsider has an opening for a Rogue write and i really want to try out for it but i will have to do some writing. I have to remember to do that. If i do, i'll post what i write on to this blog. Hopefully everything goes well.

Here are the videos i have for this time:

Alan Moore has this fantastic interview


Here is a fantastic song

Schools out.

Yes i am done with school and summer break has started. School ended about 2 or 3 weeks ago and things have been going well so far. i was supposed to sign up for summer classes but i haven't yet. I don't know if i will, it might be too late actually. I got a new bike and it was just put together today actually. It rides itself almost, sort of glides on air. As you might be able to tell, i love it. I also got Wii Fit today. Solid device, i don't think it'll help me lose any weight but at least it will get me to move around a bit more. Which is good i guess, it's more like a modern weight machine which gets you some exercise. The yoga seems interesting and my parents liked it. I will use it everyday for 30mins give or take and see what that does for me. I will start swimming in 2 weeks from today (the Saturday.) My good CPU is broken again which is a good sign of my luck but i think i will stay away from World of Warcraft for at least a week anyways . I'll try other things, maybe i'll just go around biking this week. It's odd, i have been resting for a while now but i am not feeling any more rested. I am beginning to think that decompression is a lie.


I gotta put a link of Viva la Vida when a legal version gets posted on youtube.

More exams?!

So yes! My exam got moved around and instead of being done on Monday i'll be done on Tuesday. Not the biggest deal and i guess i have more time to study for my Bio final now. Other then that my life has been going just horribly which is to be expected for exam time. On the gaming side of things, i am gaining some interest on Ninja Gaiden II which seems to be going for the "i wont had your ass to you every 10 seconds" this time around. Which is nice because i am terrible at those types of games. I blame my fat fingers. Too Human has a solid release date now (Aug 19th?) and i am hopeful for the game. It seems to be a hybrid World of Warcraft and Fable with far more guns. The problem is that the level and character design look way too basic and the story looks flat out boring and lame. I mean Gears of War bad. But like i said, i still have hope for the game as i don't want to judge it before i play it and i might actually enjoy the story/world once i get into it. Speaking of Gears of War, the sequel seems to be gaining some steam and cliffyb is giving some interviews about it. I am not going to lie, i don't really care about this game. The first one was short and i still got bored with through 75% of the game. If it did not have online Coop there would have been no way i would have even bothered with it. Still i hope Gears 2 ends up being a little more fun and maybe i'll try out the multiplayer this time. The drums for Guitar Hero 4 were shown in game informer and i am not impressed. I don't play the drums in Rock Band and if thats the best they have to offer count me out this time around. I hear rumors of a create your own track sort of thing but i doubt they will let me download tracks from other people for free and i wont have enough time to do anything worthwhile with it. Fable 2 is building up steam in my book, there were some thoughts of bad AI but i don't honestly care that much. I loved the first fable and if the whole dog mechanic doesn't work out because of bad AI, i'll be disappointed but it should not be a gamebreaker. A ton of news on Wrath of the lich king was announced last week and i think the whole concept of 10 man and 25 man dungeons being the same is interesting and for the better of the game. Sure it'll mess up the lore but hell, atleast i'll be able to kill the lich king. I might actually keep a 10 man raiding schedule while at school for the hell of it. Avatar the Last Airbender is going to be ending soon and i am sad to see it go. I want to end with some good news so i am happy to say that The Spectacular Spider-Man TV show is fantastic. Fun fresh and moves extreemly quickly through the spiderman lore with perfect reinvention of certain characters (Eddie Brock and Gwen Stacy) makes this the best new show of 2008 so far. Well thats enough of me wasting time and talking about something i love, the horrible real world waits for no man.

Interesting Pic:


enjoy some Dani California:

my test is in how many hours?!

So after seeing a trailer for the game Mirror's Edge, i remembered this great game i saw on Xplay called Prototype.

Yeah it looks crazy good to me. Some people have done stories on it but it has mostly fallen below the radar so far. It is getting a comic book tie in and i hope it turns out well because i really do love games where i can climb up on stuff. I loved Assassins Creed because i could climb all around the city and Spiderman games are pure fun because of that feature alone. If i ever get in shape i am going to start climbing things. Gotta put that on my list of shit i'll never be able to do.

Here is a song i have been listening to randomly.

Hope i don't fail my test tomorrow.

End of School

It's almost the end of the school year and exams are commin up again. Grand Theft Auto 4 is fun. I hope to play a lot of games during the summer and maybe take a summer class or two. Nothing else really going on, just have to start studying for those final tests and exams.

Nightwish: Highest Hopes

This is the Nightwish Best of CD

WoW again

I started playing WoW again so i guess i stopped bloging. As one increases the other just seems to decrease. Nothing interesting seems to be happening and even on the political side of life, the race for the presidency seems to be stalling. Meh if i have any thoughts i'll try and blog them, i just seem to be forgetting more recently.

Since my last post i had spring break which went very well. It was then i started really playing World of Warcraft again and in this amount of time i got my warrior to level 60. It was about 15 levels in that amount of time which is a pretty good feat for myself. Since then i have not really had the time to play too much but even so i need to cut back more as my school life is taking a lot of time. Nothing else really, I picked up Super Smash Brothers Brawl and Zack and Wiki in a deal. I am looking forward to GTA4, the shooting mechanic was kinda lame in the last few games and with an overhaul i think it might be fun. April 1st is coming up, that'll be fun...

Compression

So it's getting to be crunch time for me, i have 2 important tests this week in chem and bio. So instead of studying i am playing WoW. I know i am so smart. Man i need to do some work.

Hurumph!

So it seems that Clinton has won Ohio and she is doing well in Texas. She will not take the lead tonight but at least narrow the margin of victory. But to get these two she had to give up on Maryland, Virginia and DC. That kinda annoys me but thats how it works. I played more Mass Effect tonight and i finally got 750 achievements and i am worried about my game save. I read something that said if you do multiple game files on the same toon the achievement can bug out and when i let my friend play feros and then not saving it, i think i might have bugged out the achievement. Meh if it is bugged then i will not be getting that achievement for a very long time (probably not before summer.) I did get the sniper achievement which has me happy, i never have to use that stupid gun ever again and i can stick to the AR. Anyways my quest to get the achievements in Mass Effect is going well but it will have to take a break because i have two tests next week which i need to do well in. Well time for bed. Oh and i like frisky dingo. I should blog about that some other time.

8mm

So i am very sleepy for some reason, don't know why. I was going to talk about a movie i saw on HBO last night, 8mm. It is a Nicholas Cage movie about the porn industry and the dirty side of it. It is heavily censored which is for the better and overall it is a good movie. I am not a Cage fan but he seemed to do well in this role, or at least the role was written very well. I have decided something, i will only be buying movies like this from now on. Sure i'll pick up the occasional movie like Batman and if anything else really strikes me but movies like American Beauty and Brick have really changed how i look at movies. I also don't feel the real need to own many movies anymore, i have netflix now and we have the $8 a month plan which is one movie out at a time. I am not at my home enough to watch more then that and my parents wont watch more then that anyways. I also have free unlimited online viewing which is rather great for that price as they have the entire series of Xena and Hercules with many other shows such as Dr. Who and Heroes. I am going to the gym again so i think it's time i start watching more TV on my PSP, i have a lot of scrubs and maybe i'll watch the final season of the Sopranos and some Firefly. Well it seems i did get a whole blog down. Anyways, if i mention a movie i should put a clip of of the movie down:



This is a scene from the movie and if your interested in it then don't worry about spoilers, the little dialog that occurs is not in english.

Keep your coins

I made a great desktop out of this:
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Nerd Life Word Life

YTCracker – Dugdig

What an amazing song. Catchy and nerd core.

Rear Naked Choke

Anderson Silva defeated the best of Pride, Dan Henderson. It was an amazing fight and well worth the $45. The first round Dan fought well and controlled the ground game. Round two Silva stunned Henderson, took control of his back and just pounded him. Henderson dropped his guard and Silva sunk in the choke. What an amazing fight. This video wont be up long but here it is anyways.



Silva is terrifyingly good, can anyone stop him at this point?

lost/stone

So that last post was from 2am (earlier today) after i played some Rez before i went to bed. Anyways Thursdays are a lost for me as i love the show Lost. I will have to go on a Lost rant some day but today i want to talk about Eli Stone. Yes the sometimes crappy show that comes on after lost. The show premiered after season opener of Lost and it seemed that the show had hope. It had high viewer retention and had an interesting premise, a lawyer who had visions to help out unfortunate people. Now since then, the show has pretty much been on repeat, having eli balancing his love, family, work and social life while trying to keep his secret. His secret being an inoperable brain anurism. Complicated no? Well for the first time, after tonight's episode, i am interested to see what happens next week. Eli might get disbarred and they seem to be moving the story along. Well i'm tired now so i am going to stop talking, my horrible blog posting for the day is done. I hope to play some WoW and COD4 this weekend. I should stick to talking about video games. And Lost. I love Lost.

Thumb blogging - 2am

I just played rez hd and oh boy was that an experience! I thought the
game was too simple at first but once you get into it, the game somehow
pulls you in. It costs 800 ms points so I have to get it. I actually
have rez for the ps2 but I never played it, guess I'll give it a go on
my ps3 this march. So that's 800 points for rez, 160 points for 'still
alive' rock band dlc, and 400 for the mass effect dlc. That's 1360
points which would mean it will be cheapest to get the 1600 point pack
for $20. Or I might buy 1500 points ($12.50 + $6.25) online from xbl
since it's all I need and $1.25 less with no tax. 100 points for $1.25
is just weird. Anyways I'll probablly buy this stuff this weekend and
spend some time with rez. Huzzah for late night cell phone blogging with
my thumbs.

Ready2Rok

All the songs from Rock Band on a youtube playlist.

Funny Games

Mental Note: WATCH THIS MOVIE
A horror movie with no gore? Color me interested.

It's a trap!

I played some Rock Band for the first time today, while it is a good game i think it will take longer to get used to then i expected. It's almost like learning Guitar Hero over again, which (initially) was a horrible and long experience. I'll play some COD4 this weekend and maybe play more RB this week. Metal Gear Solid 4 got a release date, which is great news. June should be a slow month and i know i will enjoy playing it. A PSP God of War Bundle is coming out which i am thinking of getting this march, i have wanted the new psp for it's video out features and getting one with MGS4 is a good deal i would think. GTA4 will be out in April meaning that sony will have a string of hit games coming out almost every month (if you count a fantastic PSP game as one.) I guess i'll hold off on spending money if i want to get the PSP in march, it will be $200 and i need to cut back on spending anyways. I feel like i am too material and even though i want to cut back, i just can't seem to stop my self on buying something new. I can't see myself not buying GTA4, MGS4, Fable 2 or any other big game at launch, which means i'll be spending about $60 each. *sigh* Atleast i am holding off on buying the new phoenix wright game till the price drops, i guess thats a step in the right direction. Day Break is arriving to DVD and i do want to buy that because it was a great show and i don't know how many of the DVD's they will print. I will also have to try and pick up the movie Brick just because it was so amazing. *sigh* Me and my spending.

Mad as hell

So i got The Orange Box for about $30 after price match and reward zone junk from Best Buy and i am enjoying Portal. The game is as fantastic as promised and i think i am about half way through. I also got Rock Band into my room now, i hope to have it set up tomorrow after i get some of the furniture removed. I also want to get the wireless network up and going so i can get back onto Xbox live. I tried to play some Mass Effect but i realized that playing the game for only the achievements is not very fun at all. My soldier has a maxed out assault riffle skill but i stuck using the sniper because i need the achievement. So that being said, i think it's time to take a break from Mass Effect. I'll play more Orange Box and Rock Band and then try some Call of Duty 4 later this week. This week should be very good, i plan to really slack and get some good game time in. I hope to finish Phoenix Wright Trials and Tribulations as the new game is already out. I might get some advance wars Days of Ruin into the mix to change things up. I have been playing the multiplayer and i am really enjoying it. Other then that, i have a test tomorrow so i guess i'll be going to bed earlier then i expected. Maybe i'll watch some Zero Punctuation and then play some Portal before bed.

New games

I got Rockband and i am going to try and get orange box today. Gonna play me some portal monday night. I'll post again later.

Worth all the Cash

Not a Leming

So yeah

3 weeks into the school year and i have tests this week. Things are going ok so far, i've only missed one class and that was because my alarm did not go off. Anyways i have been playing Mass Effect. So much Mass Effect. I completed the game and then again on Hardcore. I have 730 of the 1000 achievements and it will take about 3 more playthroughs to get them all. Other then that i have been crawling through Phoenix Wright Trials and Tribulations which is just feels slower then the last two games. I have tried Zelda Phantom Hourglass and it is decent so far, if i get time i'll invest some time into it. I played some Assassin's Creed on the PS3 before coming to school and i had issues with bugs that hindered my experience. I have still yet to play Bioshock and Call of Duty 4 even though i own both. Bioshock will be something i start in summer i have decided, i do not want to sucked into a deep and interesting game if i can't play it consistently. I will play COD4 in 2 weeks after i am done with all my Tests in the near future. I hear it's a quick so i should be done with it rather soon. In other news it is good to hear that Bluray has won the format wars and my PS3 will retain it's value. Other then that my life has been slow, my sleep cycle is messed up and i have been feeling tired but that is life. Other then that here are two funny stories i recently read:

11 Movies saved by historical inaccuracies

5 ways hollywood tricks you into seeing bad movies

Thats all for this time (month?) I'll do this again when i don't feel like doing any work.

PS: Amazing Song

Superman

Back to School

I got back from india a few days ago and i am tired. It was a long and tough trip. I got a lot of reading done so i guess that was good. I watched Dexter (season 1) and the first episode of Firefly with my PSP during the flights which was nice. Both were good and i hope to watch more soon. I am playing some more Mass Effect right now and i hope to start Assassin's Creed tomorrow. I will be getting Orange Box and i will be playing COD4 and Bioshock over the next school year. I am heading back to school in the next few days and i can't wait to watch the super bowl.